Friday, October 21, 2011

Eventhough I'm selfish
Now I want to tell you this feeling
Being selfish on my own
but I want to see you now
because I'm in the middle of falling in love


because of being hurt by your past love
you couldn't trust other people
and I feel the same way as you do
but you are different
you are glowing
I am afraid by the feeling in my heart
but I want to be by your side
this soft feeling is flowing
your heart that wavers at first is slowly opening up

I want to see you now
I couldn't wait for tomorrow
It is strange
Gazing up at the open sky
I am assured
I am in the middle of falling in love

Teasing friends always said
"the two of you look good together"
but in the end we ended up as friend
I was supposed to feel relieved about it
but since when
both of us
during all these time we spent together
I felt the feelings I've never had before
when we are together

I've always been looking for the one
unknowingly you've been infront of me
Feeling different for the first time
my real feelings is

I just wanna keep on loving you always
always all about you
this clumsy feelings
happiness alone is sad
I want to tell you this feeling
warmth of this soft feeling
I want to treasure it
when I'm falling for the last love

I want to see you
let me stay near by your side
please
when looking at the sky
always
the time you come to me
I won't ever let go of this love
baby girl I wanna see you right now

I just wanna keep on loving you always
this feelings that I can't get through to you
but deep inside words are overflowing
feelings that I want to tell you
tight hugs and kisses
I want to feel it more
the night when I fall for the last love

I am in the middle of falling in love...

Monday, September 12, 2011

I Love You

•°¯`•• ι love тнe way yoυ мaĸe мe laυgн ι love тнe way yoυ мaĸe мe..••´¯°•

•°¯`•• тearѕ oғ joy ѕтreaм ғroм мy eyeѕ aѕ ι нear yoυr voιce, a lovιng ѕυrprιѕe..••´¯°•

•°¯`•• ι love yoυ wнen yoυ're angry ι love yoυ wнen yoυ're ѕad ••´¯°•

•°¯`•• ι love yoυ wнen yoυ're glad wнen yoυ тell мe oғ тнe day yoυ нad ••´¯°•

•°¯`•• ι love yoυ тrυly ι love yoυ deeply ••´¯°•

•°¯`•• ever ѕιnce тнe day ι leт yoυ мeeт мe.. ••´¯°•

•°¯`•• ι мιѕѕed yoυ wнen yoυ leғт ι мιѕѕ yoυ now мore тнan ever ••´¯°•

•°¯`•• wιтнoυт yoυ, мy lιғe ιѕ ѕтrιғe ••´¯°•

•°¯`•• ι waιт ғor yoυ aѕ тнe dayѕ go вy мy love ιѕ growιng ιncн вy ιncн.. ••´¯°•

•°¯`•• ι cannoт waιт тo ѕee yoυ agaιn вυт ι waιт ғor yoυ, and yoυr warм smile.
•°¯`••

Friday, September 9, 2011

Deliver This Message

Wind of beginnings, deliver this message

Because I will always believe in you

That time I was standing in a world I saw in my dream

But I won't look back, because I've decided to walk forward

Looking up at the seven-colored rainbow in the sky, do you see it too?

Wind of beginnings, deliver this message

Because I will watch your back as you run towards your dream

Because I will always believe in you

Fluttering towards the future

When a person thinks about the one important to them

Surely they have a kind look on their face

The road through time is endless, move forward and don't give up

Wind of beginnings, deliver this message

At the end of your faraway journey, I will wait for you

Because I believe my wish will be delivered

If I meet you again someday, show me your smile

Wind of beginnings, deliver this message

At the end of your faraway journey, I will wait for you

Because I believe my wish will be delivered

There is nothing to be afraid of, "because you exist"

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Sorry~

Will you listen to my story ?

It'll just be a minute

How can i explain ?

Whatever happened here

I never meant to hurt you

When i say I'm sorry

Will you believe me ?

Listen to my story

Say you won't leave me

When i say I'm sorry

Can you forgive me ?

When i say I'll always be there

Will you believe in me ?

All the words that i come up with

There's no excuse, no explanation

If I could undo what I did wrong

I'd give away all that I own

When I say I'm sorry

Will you believe me ?

When I say I'm sorry

Can you forgive me ?

If I told you I've been cleaning my soul

And I promise you I'll regain control

Will you open your door

And let me in ?

Take me for who i am

And not for who I've been ?

When I say I'm sorry

Will you believe me ?

Can you forgive me ?

When I say I'll always be there

Will you believe in me ?

When I say I'm sorry

I'm Sorry
I'm Sorry
I'm Sorry
I'm Sorry
I'm Sorry

Will you believe me ?

Can you forgive me ?

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

University : Part 1

Hey there people~ well, the title does say 'University : Part 1''. Most of you may be thinking this is a post about my first experience in university life. Sorry to disappoint you guys. This post is about my preparation for my uni life. The reason for Part 1 is simply because, intentionally, i wanted to make this post together with pictures. Buuuuut, the pictures are going to be delayed. So yea, i'll get to the pictures in Part 2.

Alrite, getting to the story. Just like every other form 6 leavers, i too am waiting for my UPU result. but, here's the catch. my result... ain't good enough for the course my parents want me to apply, Medicine. So, my dad made his plans to send me to Indonesia for my medicine degree. Now, i applied for Universitas Padjajaran. In order to get selected into that uni, i had to go for an entrance exam and an oral interview.

On 11th June, the agent organised classes to prepare all applicant for their entrance exam. there were about 53 of us, broken into two classes, Class A and Class B. without the need to say, Class B obviously was the better class. Not to mention the fact that i was in Class B as well. :p Anyways, first half-day was pretty boring. i was practically sitting all by myself. why ?? because i dont know anyone there. well, there was this one guy who knew me, but i wasn't really keen on sticking close to him. most of reader are now wondering why i mentioned ''half-day''. the reason, i made friends during lunch ! And not to mention this girl *ehem ehem* is pretty. don't think too much people. I'm not gona break me 20 year single streak just yet. maybe after i graduate. but that's a topic for another day~

So, from day 2 onwards, i had 2 friends to study together with. its pretty ironic that the 2 of them have opposite personalities. one is super calm, and the other is a worries too much~ anyways, the 3 of us amazingly did click very well and yea, we're kinda like besties now. hahahaha~ oh yea, i guess i didn't mention. classes were held from 11th-17th June from 8am-6pm. i know, Killer Classes. Names of my besties, Karen Low and Allison. (Allison. if you're reading this, please note i DID NOT make a spelling error for your name). despite the looooong hours of class, it was really fun. the lecturers were great and extremely sporting.
time for a little fussing. the exam had PHYSICS, which i dropped 2 years ago. which meant, i was totally blurr during physics class. another fuss, they're electron arrangement is a little weird. third fuss, calculator is NOT allowed. fourth fuss, periodic table not provided during exam. fifth fuss, no formula sheet or data booklet. these were some of the "great'' rules which made me soooo excited for the entrance exam.

entrance exam was on the 19th. which means one free day on 18th to rest. but considering the extra good rules set by the Indonesian exam board, i planned to study. Awesomely, Karen wanted to study as well. and we both ended up revising from 9am-5pm at McD, The Mall (sumwhr near PWTC).

19th arrived, exam day~ 100 objective questions, 2.5 hours, no calculator. i prayed extra hard to god. there's was another ''good news''. out of the 200 applicants for medicine, only 80 will be selected. wat a bummer ! well, everything ended on 19th and all was done. all that was left was to wait for the results.

on 25th June, i received a phone call from Karen saying she passed. for the first 2 minutes, i was happy for her. but aftr that, reality kicked and bit me in the ass. her exam number was waaaay later than mine. so, why the hell did she get the call while i did not. did i fail ?? now that was a living nightmare. i cudn't take it. i turned on my pc, logged into the exam system, key-ed in my exam number. waiting... waiting... and yes !! I PASSED AS WELL !! isnt that awesome news. i'm the top 80 out of 200. one hour later, the agent calls and says i passed. how ''efficient''.

well, that's all for now, this is by far my longest post. next up, GOTCHA CALL post !! XD

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Work Experience

Well, as promised, here's the next post about my working experience at SMK Kepong. I was working there for about 3 months, and i had a really fun time. Especially thanks to my 4 makmur class for being the most sporting and most co-operative class !!

Hmm, STPM was over somewhr in December. and i needed a job while waiting for my result. so, there i sent one sms to Pn.Aiza, who's the school PK1, but alot like a mother to me at school. she has helped me HEAPS and i dont know how i can ever re-pay her. i told her i wanted a job at school, and ta-da~ i got accepted to teach a bunch of form 4 kids Sejarah and Moral AND i was given charge of the Debate team.

Debate and I go waay back together. haha.. i was the team captain, then the team coach, and this year, the teacher in charge. its practically IMPOSSIBLE to separate debate and me. u want proof, well, dis post was supposed to b about my class students. but somehow, debate got dragged in xD.. i guess its the bond me and debate have~ LOL

Getting the job offer was great. wat i considered as the bonus was 2 things.
1) i was working in the morning session. (peisha and srijesh said it was impossible to get the morning shift as the principal will not allow)
2) getting and air-conditioned room and access to the school library !!!

So, my 3 months in school made me see school life in the teacher's point of view. i understood why teacher's chase after each single period that belongs to them. finishing the syllabus is hard. as i student, i loved assembly b'coz dat means no 1st and 2nd period most of the time. as i teacher, i hated assembly for robbing me of those precious moments (i wudnt b complaining if assembly robbed me of 4 Cekap instead >.<)

The most fun i had in my working experience was definitely debate, and my favourite 4 Makmur. if i had not been given 4 makmur, my school working life would have been a total bore~ really wished that i could have had more time with them. ^_^

Anyways, on my last day, they all had a small farewell party for me. it was touching. more touching than that was their parting gift to me.. and the most touching of all, was, one of my students actually cried. made my heart break to see her cry so hard.

4 makmur, wish u all the best for your coming exams and SPM ! thank you for everything. my blessing is always with all of you :)

AND NOW, ITS PICTURE TIME~



reach the class door

''cut the ribbon'' (with my hand )

enter the class *notice confetti on floor*

message on board

whole class

girls only

whole class again

another whole class

whole class~

boys only~

~the girls who love to go out~

MY FAREWELL GIFT

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Back From The Dead


Heyo my blog~ well, its been a looooong time..

anyways, i've been freaking lazy and busy lately, so, no time to blog. recently, i was reading another dead blog.. it made me want to revive my very own dead blog. therefore, i am officially raising it back from the dead. it is now in the process of living again. jus thought that i made the announcement before putting up any posts.

the next post is gona be about my working experience at my ex-school, SMK Kepong together with pictures (which was taken with my favourite class, 4 Makmur)

Stay tuned~